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title: My Wilting Mind
date: 2024-06-03T15:48:31+01:00
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description: "What happens when you stop challenging your mind ?"
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## **Introduction**

What happens when we stop challenging our minds? While some people might enjoy
the tranquility boredom, I strive to strike a balance. I appreciate quiet time
to think and process my thoughts, but I also need challenges to exercise my
brain. Without these challenges I notice a decline in my cognitive abilities,
affecting my problem-solving skills, memory and attention span. I become less
creative and less inclined to develop new ideas. My desire for new knowledge
wanes, and I start to feel too comfortable with what I already know. This
stagnation also impacts my self-perception, leading to a negative view of
myself and struggles with my identity.

## **The Problem**

In April, I started a new job after being let go from Twitch. I was eager to
face new challenges in a different industry—broadcasting—where I could expand
my skill set and apply my existing knowledge. However, once I began, I felt a
sense of emptiness. During training, I realized the job description was
inaccurate, and there was limited room for technical growth. I went from
managing 50,000 bare metal servers and 4,000 network devices worldwide,
ensuring the network and services ran reliably, to opening tickets and sending
emails while other teams fixed the issues. The contrast was stark and
disheartening.

## **Initial Feelings**

A flood of emotions ensued. For context, I had just returned from South Korea,
spent a day at home with my family, and then moved to an Airbnb in London to
start my new job. I needed to find a permanent place to stay, all within two
weeks. The rapid changes left me struggling to understand my feelings, like
being lost in a river with strong currents, unable to find direction. Realizing
I had no control over these changes added to my torment.

## **Balancing Emotions**

Balancing emotions is a skill that takes time and effort to learn. In our busy
lives, learning to manage—not control—our feelings often falls to second
priority. We have "more important" things to focus on, such as work, family, and
relationships. However, our emotions play a significant role in everything we do.

### Self Awareness
Recognising our emotions and being aware of how we feel helps us to make
conscious choices about how we respond.

### Dual-Processing
Humans use two processing systems:
- **System 1 (Emotional)**: Fast, automatic and unconscious processing of emotional cues
    - Intuition
    - Emotional Response to stimuli
    - Habitual behaviour
- **System 2 (Rational)**: Slow, controlled and conscious processing of logical information
    - Deliberate
    - Logical
    - Critical Thinking

Leveraging both systems simultaneously reduces cognitive bias, with each system
feeding into the other.

### Emotional Regulation
Once we acknowledge and accept our emotions we can begin to regulate how we
feel. We can then refocus our perspective to find a more balanced response

> **Note:**
>
> Reactions and Responses are different:
> - Reaction: System 1, Emotional, Impulsive
> - Response: System 2, Logical, Thought out

### Coping Mechanisms
We can combat overwhelming negative emotions using coping mechanisms such as
mindfulness or humor. These help us find a sense of equilibrium.

## **Pushing Through**

Talking to people about my situation helped me process and better understand my
feelings as well as get another opinion. I Identified the parts of my life I
have control over and put a plan in place to make changes. In my case, taking
control meant applying for new jobs and keeping myself busy outside of work.
This practice gave me hope and the push I needed to keep going.

## Continuous Learning

Lifelong learning is crucial for maintaining mental agility and personal
satisfaction. There are numerous ways to continue learning, some example that I
do: online courses, reading books, and engaging in new hobbies. This commitment
to continuous learning helps keep the mind sharp and opens up new opportunities.

## The Connection Between Mental and Physical Health

Maintaining mental health is deeply connected to physical health. Regular
physical exercise can greatly improve cognitive function and emotional
well-being. For bonus points adopt healthy diet and adequate sleep. note to
self: work harder on this part :|

## Building Resilience

Building resilience is essential for coping with setbacks and challenges.
Developing resilience skills and adopting a growth mindset can help view
challenges as opportunities for growth rather than obstacles. This perspective
is vital for personal and professional development. There are many aspects that
make up resiliency, I have listed some of them that are important to me.

### Build Strong Relationships
- Seek Support: Maintain strong connections with family and friends.
- Engage in Community: Participate in community activities or join support groups to build a network of support.
### Improve Emotional intelligence
- Self-Awareness: Recognize and understand your emotions.
- Emotional Regulation: Learn techniques to manage and respond to emotions effectively.
### Set Realistic Goals
- Small Steps: Break larger goals into smaller, manageable steps.
- Celebrate Progress: Acknowledge and celebrate your achievements, no matter how small.
### Develop Problem-Solving Skills
- Analytical Thinking: Approach problems methodically, considering various solutions and their potential outcomes.
- Adaptability: Be flexible and open to changing your approach if necessary.
### Self-Confidence
- Self-Efficacy: Believe in your ability to overcome challenges and succeed.
- Past Successes: Reflect on past successes and how you overcame obstacles.
### Develop a Sense of Purpose
- Meaningful Activities: Engage in activities that align with your values and give your life meaning.
- Volunteer Work: Participate in volunteer work to help others and build a sense of community and purpose.

## Social Connections and Support Systems

Strong social connections and a reliable support system are critical for
getting through difficult times. Engaging in a community or groups can help
build new relationships and provide necessary support as well as give you a
sense of belonging.

## Setting and Achieving Goals

Setting personal and career goals is important for maintaining motivation
and direction. Creating actionable plans to achieve these goals and making sure
to celebrate small wins along the way. This will keep the momentum going and 
provide a sense of accomplishment.

## Mindfulness and Self-Reflection

Incorporating mindfulness practices can help manage stress and enhance
self-awareness. Regular self-reflection is crucial for assessing personal
growth, understanding emotions better, and making informed decisions about
future actions. Some practices that I use are:
- Journaling
- Exercise
- Writing blog posts here and there
- Sitting alone, just me and my thoughts

## Professional Development

Continuously working to improve your professional skills is important, even if
the current job does not provide the necessary challenges. Networking within and
outside the industry can help explore new opportunities and stay updated with
industry trends. As well as this try to find chellenge, find areas that you lack
experience or would like to improve on. For me this happened to be confidence
in hosting large meatings and taking charge. Although I was not challenging my
mind with technical problems I was still challenging myself to improve.

Sometimes it's all about perspective.

## Finding Purpose and Meaning

Finding purpose and meaning in life give us motivation and satisfaction.
Taking part in activities that contribute to the greater good, such as
volunteering, can provide fulfillment and a sense of purpose.

One community I found to be very beneficial for me was joining the local hackspace.
The hackspace is new and still spinning up as I write this post. I was there,
I helped put parts of the space together, I left my mark on the space with work
I could be proud of. Volunteering gave me the feeling of contributing to
something bigger than myself. A space that people will use for-hopefully-years
I was able to help build. That is something I can be proud of.

## **Conclusion**

Life's challenges can be daunting, but they also offer opportunities for growth.
By balancing our emotions and taking advantage of both emotional and rational
thinking, we can navigate these challenges more effectively. Recognizing and
regulating our emotions, while also employing coping mechanisms, can help us
maintain a sense of balance and well-being. As I continue to seek new
opportunities and keep myself engaged, I remind myself of the importance of
challenging my mind and staying proactive in managing my life.

We are the captains of our ship and where we sail is our story. Take control
and become a little bit better everyday. Society asks a lot of us but we need to
take a step back sometimes and simply admire everything we have achieved and how
far we have left to go. I am 22 (as of writing this post) and I have a lifetime
ahead of me, this part of my life is simply the pebble thrown into the lake, I
am excited to see what the ripples look like.